Dillon James Coburn

I'm dedicating this post to my boyfriend. He is the most amazing person I have ever met. He has changed me in ways no one could ever dream of. I stopped cutting because of him. He was my support through that. I'm not saying that I am a perfect girlfriend. I'm not. I admit to that. I have done some very crappy things to him in the past. I once heard "Everyone on this earth is human. We all make mistakes, but it takes a good person to forgive and forget." Dillon forgave me for the crappy things I did. I will not go as far as saying he forgot because let's be honest, Guys never forget when their girl does them wrong. They might forgive you for the sake of your relationship but they never forget. Just keep that in mind ladies. I love Dillon more than my words could ever explain. He is my heart and my soul. When I'm with him, i feel like we are the only two people on earth. That's how strongly I feel about him. I want him to just wife me up already. I want to mother his children and honestly, if you know me at all, you know i am always saying, " I don't want kids. I'd be a terrible mother." Ha ha. This man makes me want kids. That is the affect he has on me. He makes me want to be a better person. No. Wait. Correction. He makes me a better person. I could write some sappy lovey dovey stuff about him to "show" my love for him but I won't. I'm not big on sappy love stuff. Don't get me wrong I'm a hopeless romantic, but with him I feel like I should just be me. I don't have to fake my personality to make him like me. Why do that when I already have him? I thought I was in love with my other boyfriends but I wasn't. This time I am truly in love. If he ever left me, I should just not exist. I couldn't picture life without him in it. He knows everything about me. He knows my past. Not many people know about my childhood outside of family members and close friends[which i don't have many of.] I could be having a crappy day and the minute I hear his voice, everything is 100 times better. I could be broke[well i am broke, but you catch my drift] and homeless and have nothing to my name, but as long as he is by my side, I'm on top of the world. right about now, I usually would start quoting cute songs that i feel "relate" to my relationship but i think it's time for a change. I think it's time for me to speak from my heart because I hold so much in. I bottle most of my emotions. I need this man. I need him more than I need to breathe. When he isn't here I feel like part of me is missing. I feel incomplete. He makes me who I am as a person. I could probably talk about him all day long, but I think I'll stop here. You guys don't want to read a novel. This is a blog, not a book. Ha Ha. Basically, Dillon James Coburn is my better half. He means the world to me and so much more.